I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become. I don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life, but I'm afraid to leave. And I'm just tired, you know? I'm just so tired of being afraid.”

I just didnt expect it. How does it feels like to be backstabbed again and again
and even after that, you can still smile to me and say that u like me so much.

It is digusting.

So much thoughts ...
I'm so greedy, i never know how to be contented in my life.
I feel that i don't deserve to feel this way though.
Its damn unfair, damn damn unfair.

I am so upset now, angry with myself.
What am I

I want to be a person without emotion.
That way, i won't feel any pain anymore.

I'm not coping well, I feel like i am falling.
How do i stop negativity from overflowing?

Had dinner with my lisa and shuhui ~
Aston was great and super filling!!!
catching up with each other was great too :)

I miss you yimama...
really love you alot